Two Sides of Me

  

There are two sides of me

Two sides of my character

Two sides of my behave

Two different case of how my mind work

I don't know why, but it's really confussing

And I don't know how it's going to be vanished

Hemm... actually I'm little afraid this will affected my life,

Is it normal for people who just step their 20?

Or I'm just exploring many ways to becoming

 'The Real Me'?

I can be a really good girl to other people

I can be harsh to my closest relatives

I can be dilligent like an ant at campus,

And my family said that I'm the laziest when I'm home

I think I'm smart enough to do the campus' tasks

But sometimes, my task even don't deserved to get C

I can be religious, read books about my faith

But sometimes, I just being fangirl and look for kpop stars for hours

 Sometimes I just pretend for being nice to them,

In the other hand I know all of their deepest secrets

Am I being dilligent just for my good image?

Am I being nice just for people whom I can take advantage from them?

Am I just pretending to be 'Know This-Know That'

so people never looked down on me?

This, I never can be consult with anyone

Maybe I'm just have many things that I can't 

share with... 

Maybe I can't find the right person to tell my stories

So I'm just find this blog to share with

This heavy thoughts really need to going out from my brain

I think I need people who have open mind

 

How to react with this two sides of me,

I think this is just my proccess to be an adult

This two sides of me, He give me this choices 

so I can choose what really suit for me, 

and I know the good and bad things of each side

  Or, What if this two sides of me is My Real Personality?