My Failures

 I know I will receive rejection email as I apply to many kind of scholarship.

I don't know how much I can bear to hear the bad result. 

But every time I feel down, I'm back to read books, telling stories to my closest people, and writing in any media 

Every time I receive the note of failure, I hesitates to walk further. I can't really accept it and admit that I have so many flaws. I even really scared to receive criticism from stranger. To the point I'm afraid showing off my self to the social media. To the point I sometimes feels jealous over people's achievements... 

I need to reflect on this matters, I need to evaluate myself to gain more life experiences.. 

I will exercise myself to receive more failures in order to be strong. 

Here are my failures in this first quarter of 2022

I hope, really hope that I learn a lot from this experiences...

Catatan Kecil

 

Bila ingin hidup damai di dunia
Bahagialah dengan apa yang kau punya
Walau hatimu merasa
Semua belum sempurna sebenarnya
Kita sudah cukup semuanya

Bila dunia membuatmu kecewa
Karna semua cita-citamu tertunda
Percayalah segalanya
Telah diatur semesta
Agar kita mendapatkan yang terindah

Impianmu terbangkanlah tinggi
Tapi slalu pijakkan kaki di bumi
Senyumlah kembali
Bahagiakan hari ini
Buatlah hatimu bersinar lagi

Bila ingin lebih damai di dunia
Berbagilah bahagia yang tlah kau punya
Kini hatimu terasa
Semua lebih sempurna
Karena kau hidup
Dengan seutuhnya

Impianmu terbangkanlah tingi
Tapi slalu pijakkan kaki dibumi
Senyumlah kembali
Bahagiakan hari ini
Buatlah hatimu bersinar lagi

Bila ingin lebih damai di dunia
Berbagilah bahagia yang tlah kau punya
Percayalah segalanya
Telah diatur semesta
Agar kita mendapatkan yang terindah

Kini hatimu terasa
Semua lebih sempurna
Karena kau hidup
Dengan seutuhnya

Money Money...

Since I resigned from my full time job, I listed all of the future important expenses that I need in order to support process of my self-development. 

Almost all of them were checked! ✅✅✅

I just need additional 12-15 million Rupiahs in order to buy a brand new laptop 😭😭

Let's work hard!!

Please pray for my future.. 

I need another 20 million Rupiahs to support my future education 🥺🥺🥺

Let alone marriage, I need to fulfill this dream first...