I remember I wrote this in 2021 and right now I already in the middle of 2026
In 2012, 2017, and 2021, I wrote some of my future dreams. I could only find the recipe from 2021, and I just realised it's already 2026.
At that time, I had some of my dreams accomplished, Alhamdulillah~ but when I read the last post in 2021, it make me contemplate at how Allah is the one that give me the best life.
I did my master degree abroad with full scholarship from government, in my favorite university, favorite city and country, the best of the best.
I get to travel more, taking pictures and memories, created great bond with my closest people.
After graduated, I got a great deal with project that made me travel abroad again, create new dream teammates that I really grateful of.
All of my family members is here with me, celebrating various important events together.
I haven't found my life partner yet, still looking for the most perfect candidate 😂 I don't know if I can find one before I leave this world. I don't know if it still be my ultimate goal in life or should I create another purpose of living?
Well, let's spend more time designing better life shall we?
In 2031, honestly I don't know if I will still be here or not. The idea of me living all these time is still feel surreal to me. I started questioning everything. I also starting to feel so scared of all these uncertainty. I live all my life feel so secured thanks to my beloved family. The burden of being an adult is starting to feel so real. Also in between these worldwide conflicts, nation's chaos, unemployment, etc... Maybe I will be in survival mode then.
The optimist side of me... wanted to stay abroad for so many reasons. I want to have exhibition abroad, I want to get a job in another country, get a fellowship, short course, second master or another degree, maybe.. could also my best friend for life (aka partner) come within package😅?
On the other side, I would love to fulfill my responsibility as an awardee of the scholarship. I need to stay up to 3 years and it would be finish around 2027. My age will be around 35 by then. I love that now I have projects waiting in line and I want to do something with that, based on my contribution essay.
Then... I want to move somewhere by myself. I want to have my own living space. Place where I have full control of it. The place where I could grow many kind of flowers and romanticizing my own life. The place where I can freely cook my own dish and arrange my small library.
Lastly... I want to be devoted moslem as well. I wish to learn more of Quran, Fiqh, Tahsin. I want to create a community (or family) that wish to learn Islam together.
I will be around 39 by 2031 and honestly I am so scared that everything will be change so fast uncontrollably. I am still dumb about everything in this world and planning my life out every 5 years is a thing that keeps me fight.
I am in the state where... whether death or life-long partner find me first... I believe God gives me the best scenario ever.
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