A Post for The End of This Year

Hellooo from the other side hehe

This time I want to share my 2015 lately.. there are many things I have to be grateful for. I learned many things, I failed many too. I step closer to freedom yet I have to be struggle to be independent. I dream of being success, yet I'm not sure if I already in the right path or not. Like IU's song in 23, I spent my 23 just like irony: I have the darkest side yet I think I'm really a good girl. I want to make money but I want to be free. I want to fall in love but I want to act childishly annoying.

Fly the time to the beginning of 2015.

January. I got a job. It's not like job that you think before, I have a unique one. I am grateful that I can open one door of new opportunity, new side of my self. I studied a lot of new things, in between architecture, interior and urban matters. Real good except for I have to commute and wasting a lot of time to travel. Yet, I'm not a good worker though. I already propose to take a break for 10 days (that's a lot!) But I believe that decision I make, get me to the new interesting things. I took time to traveling with my bestfriend to Singapore and Malaysia. We stay with local people in their apartments which I never tought to try before. We got to know better the citizen plus their city, we plan our schedule by ourself, we go around in the city without problem. We save alot of money from not taking any to hotel cost. As a plus we got the new family. It changes my whole perspective about traveling. Don't have to waste alot of money to get the experience. Before this, I believe that I won't go anywhere without an important things to do and alot of people as my company. Now I think I can go anywhere by myself hahaa... Nice. Really nice~

February. I met a lot of great people. The project already started and we have opportunity to share the stories, experiences. My collagues is the best too. I learned alot about their motivation, their dreams, determination to get what they want. I kinda envy, actually. I just take things too slow.

March. Project getting busy and busier. Its not that I'm asking "do we have to do things like this?" but at that time I don't know if it really make me learn much or not. I feel so down at this time. A lot of rejections, surveys, presentations, and yet I can't predict anything about this project.

April. I joined Komunitas Inspirasi Jelajah Pulau. You can say its an escape from working, but actually I always devoted my time to do something beside my usual activities. Moreover, its about kids, education, and rural community. Island, beach and the sea is a big bonus! Why, why... I can't refuse to not to join. Its turn out to be my precious opportunity to connect with another great fellow. I get to know a lot of professional from many fields. Later I get to know Rumah Harapan, Save Payon Campaign, Bogor Traveler from KIJP~ so happy~

May. I met great friends from Bogor traveling community. You know, joined Komunitas Inspirasi Jelajah Pulau give me chance to connected with people who have the same hobby. Actually I really want to travel more. But sometimes, waiting your friends to make some time and traveling with you is not that easy. This is the place where we can join travel, and we will make it even just 3 people who is going, feel free to join or make plan later. No hard feeling at all! I already wandering to Ujung Genteng, Gunung Salak, and Gunung Padang. Hopefully will make another trip to the great place

June. Not much things happened. I think I starting to doubt about my choice. Really, I don't know anymore about things I want to do actually hahaa. Maybe its because of 20 something life crisis, right? When you think you already feel free from college and got a job then you don't know what kind of job you really want. Honestly I always want to be enterpreneur. But I like to learn anything so I actually enjoying academic things like research, make paper, competition, etc. If I'm not mistaken, at this month, I have to complete my paper for engineering international seminar research at Lombok.

July. Hemm.. I don't know if I have any decent memory or not about this month..but I feel so sad because studio will be empty soon. All of internship student will be back to their home when I feel we already really close. This month is Ramadhan if I'm not mistaken. A lot of events for breakfasting. But I can't fulfill my target this Ramadhan. Kinda sad...

August. Alot of things happened. Just. A. Lot. hahaha.. This month got me to a really painful memories yet I have the most pleasing news and event. Painful memories? Its a secret though but it hit me in my deepest heart. For all people's sake, I think I will take this matter with me down to my grave. Yet I got announced that 2 of my design product already curated and allowed to be exhibited in Glasgow, United Kingdom! Two products! Can you imagine? Happy tears! Oh yeah, I presented my paper too so at this month I fly to Lombok and get a chance to touch beach and sand again~~ oh yeah, because of the paper at Lombok, we have opportunity to be a speaker for JKTWS 2015 and it means I have to presented my paper in front of Japanese professor and students. So much feels. One more things, because of the graduation of my best friends, I have chance to illustrated Dr. Seuss' book: Oh The Places You'll Go and give it to them as present. I hope in the future I can illustrated more books.

September. New project. New responsibility. Honestly I think its a bit annoying. Oh I don't know why but I don't know what to do. Its like they are dragging me before I make decision. They give me no choice to left. Oh why. But dearrr in this month I have the most pleasing experience everrr. We have a chance to exhibit our products at Glasgow, United Kingdom. You know, its always my dream to be surrounded with old buildings, red mapple leaves, autumn feels~ moreover, you go there because they appreciate things you make. This is my first time go accross the continent. Then I believe someday I will go there again. I will. Definitely.

October. I joined KIJP again as inspirator! What an experience! I always join as a photographer before because I don't have a proper experience of being a professional. Then, I was recommended for join as inspirator. It means I have to teach a class and its much more difficult than I think before. For bonus, Pari Island is really beautiful! I enjoyed every inch of this island.

November. Last month of one project. It give lot of feels. At the same time I feel happy and annoyed lol. I'm happy finally this is reach to the end, but not so smoothly so I'm kinda sad. I learn more about community. I got chance to fill in a psychology class, and maybe I have interest in tutoring hahaa. But this month really give me a nerves. Lot of things to do but all of people are missing already. Busy but there are just plenty of us who still left.

December. Hemm.. I'm not sure but I think I really need a better plan fot the next year. 2015 was awesome yet I still have  alot of things to do left. Actually I have a lot of drawing commisions, sewing commisions, design, writing, etc, but I have to do it one by one. I'm sorry to dissapointed you all.. I don't have intention to hold the project but juggling to one another is much more difficult now. I'm thinking of have a new job next year. I'm about to resign because I don't think I can do the commute everyday.

So, I still have many things to do until the new year come. I will work my ass off to finish all.
I have many plans in my head for 2016 and I can't wait to do it already. My birthday coming so soon. Good bye my puzzling 23~ I hope I can manage all of things better in the future. Next year target I want to apply for some of university so that I can learn more. I want to do my business too. I will go to Korea XD. Hope it will going well.

Namaku Hujan

Namaku Hujan

Aku ,
Tak bisa seramah matahari.
Aku memang agak dingin,
menyusup sedikit-sedikit lalu membuatmu jatuh sakit

Aku ingin bertemu denganmu,
sudah lama aku ingin.
Tapi musim kering ini menyulitkanku
aku hanya bisa menunggu angin

Aku jatuh hanya untukmu,
kamu yang merindukan seseorang,
kau hanya butuh aku untuk menyembunyikan air matamu

Ingin aku memelukmu,
namun aku takut membuatmu menggigil
aku berusaha sedikit, menahan tangisku juga
biarlah matahari yang menghangatkanmu,
bukan aku

Namaku Hujan,
aku datang karena ingin bertemu denganmu,
namun, selalu mentari cerah yang selalu orang rindukan
Ketika kita berpapasan,
kamu hanya berani menggenggam erat payungmu, berusaha sembunyi,
aku terlanjur lenyap tertelan tanah

Sendiri

Perempuan ini terbiasa mandiri
Hingga kini,
Hampir sepanjang hidupnya ia habiskan sendiri
Mungkin bukan maksudnya untuk seperti ini
Hingga tak tahu lagi apa itu rasanya sepi

Mungkin ia pernah bermimpi
Memiliki kekasih,
suami yang baik hati.
Juga bercita cita
merawat anak cucunya sampai mati

Tapi siapa sangka,
hingga usianya diawali angka 8,
ia memilih untuk sendiri

Bukannya ia tak punya hati,
Hatinya sangat lembut,
ia pakai untuk mengasuh anak jalanan yang ia kasihi
juga mengajar anak-anak perempuan menari
tak pernah ia lewatkan sehari
bersama anak-anak sambil bernyanyi

Tapi kadang orang-orang tak mau tahu
Mereka kerjanya gosip melulu
"perempuan macam apa tak punya suami"
"perawan tua, kamu tahu?"

Ia telah lama bersabar dan menanti
Bukan meratap atau menangisi
Tapi lembut hatinya kadang perih
semua orang memiliki takdirnya sendiri
tapi kadang tak semua mengerti

Sabar, kini ia tak merasa sakit lagi
Dikelilingi anak-anak yang sering ia lindungi
Ia melihat cahaya menjemputnya kesini
Lalu ia tersenyum,
kekasih abadinya telah datang menghampiri

I'll Give You A Present

I am going to show you a song

I'm going to whistle something for you

You know, looking at your clear eyes, you, standing there, barefoot,
my heart gets clear, too.

Even if we've run away together to a place far, far away -
I'm happy because I met you.
So now I am going to sing you a song.

I am going to give you a goat
I am going to put your shoes on you

You know, looking at your happy eyes, you, being there smiling;
my heart gets happy, too.

We're so far away in such a remote place,
but I am happy because I could help you.

So now I'm going to show you a song
Now I am going to give you a present.

-Dalmoon

Note: Well, the goat things really crack me up 

Sebuah Cerita

Kemarin, waktu yang menyenangkan karena bisa bertemu dengan sahabat

Walaupun kini kami menjalani hidup masing-masing, semua sepertinya baik-baik saja

Tentu saja, pertemuan seperti ini jadi agak jarang, aku pun kadang merasa hilang

Pertemuan seperti kemarin memang sangat jarang, maka itu aku berusaha datang

Bertemu sahabat, melempar kisah selama aku dan mereka tidak menghadiri kisah satu sama lainnya

Padahal dulu tak satu hari pun kami lepas dari kisah masing-masing 

Sampai aku ingat, mungkin hari terakhir kami memakai seragam

Kesempatan terakhir naik bus sekolah dan berkeliaran karena tak ada pelajaran

Janji kami saat itu, hanya sederhana

Bisa bertemu lagi dengan membawa kisah masing-masing,

Kisah yang dapat kami banggakan untuk diceritakan

Saat itu kami adalah sekumpulan sahabat yang memang masih sangat muda

Masalah apapun tak terlihat besar di mata kami, asalkan kami memiliki teman untuk berbagi

Kesempatan untuk menggapai mimpi masih terbuka sangat, sangat lebar

Mendukung mimpi masing-masing, 

Melepaskan satu sama lain,

Menghadapi kenyataan dunia bahwa hidup tak sesempit ruangan 7x8

Kemarin kami berkumpul kembali,

Bercerita tentang hidup

Bercerita pengalaman dan keluh kesah

Tak bisa dipungkiri, tak semua cerita berakhir menyenangkan dan bahagia

Aku pun sejujurnya merasakan kekecewaan itu

Ketika salah satu sahabat mengakuinya

Hal yang sering aku dengar jauh dari orang lain

Kini terasa sangat dekat dan terus terang bukan cerita yang ingin aku dengar darinya

Sejujurnya aku tak tahu apa yang harus aku lakukan

Ia sahabatku, tapi aku merasa gagal karena ternyata ia menyimpan deritanya begitu lama dan sendirian

Tanpa berkata apapun, Tanpa cerita apapun. 

Bahkan ketika sebelumnya aku pikir aku mengalami kejadian-kejadian tak menyenangkan

Sesaat sebelum itu, aku disadarkan bahwa banyak hal yang harus aku syukuri

Cerita kali ini, berbeda dari cerita kami sebelum-sebelumnya

Aku menyadari, hidup ini tak seindah pikir kami dulu

Sakitnya, deritanya, tangisnya, kini bukan lagi cerita hanya aku baca dari novel atau surat kabar

Sakitnya, deritanya, tangisnya, menohokku, terasa sedemikian jujurnya

Perjalanan pulang kemarin, benar-benar membawaku pada lamunan panjang...

Ketika aku merasa hidupku aman, apa yang terjadi dengan hidup orang lain?

Sebagai orang terdekatnya, apa yang bisa aku lakukan?

Cukup, kalau bisa cukup kali ini saja aku mendengarnya

Cerita itu, kalau pun memang adalah kekhilafan, cukup hanya kali itu saja

Kesalahannya sudah diganjar dengan beragam tanggung jawab yang ia emban

Kini waktuku menebus kehilanganku sebagai sahabatnya

Menurutnya, mendengarkan ceritanya, meskipun getir dan bukan sesuatu yang ia banggakan, saat ini adalah satu-satunya hal yang bisa aku lakukan dengan baik

Tanpa memotong cerita, tanpa menghakiminya terlalu cepat, tanpa meninggalkannya setelah apa yang ia akui salah untuk dilakukan

Aku benar-benar berharap, berdoa,

Semoga di lain kesempatan saat sahabat-sahabatku berkumpul,

Aku benar-benar ingin mendengar cerita kesuksesan kalian,

atau cerita tentang bangkitnya kalian dari kejatuhan

Aku ingin secepatnya mengejar kalian, sahabat-sahabat yang aku banggakan

Semoga cerita di pertemuan berikutnya....

From Suburban to Suburban

Well, this time I want to share my experience as a commuter who working far from my home. It's not as far as you tought maybe, but its definitely a killer: I have to spend minimum 1 hour to reach my office (not including waiting for the bus/train). The crowd is crazy, and I can't think I would do this more than 1 year.

I live in Srengseng Sawah. If you know that place, it just spend 15 minutes to Depok. This place  is way too south to be called as Jakarta. My office located at Bintaro, Tangerang Selatan, which mean I have to go from the south to the west.

Not that far, If you think it can be reach 30 min to 45 min via Tol. Its about 20km away from my home. But I couldn't always hop on a someone else car everyday, right? Could you wondering how many times I would change the mode if I use public transportation?

The first time i figure how to reach the place is with commuterline. It would spend about Rp. 3000,- but I have to transit once in Tanah Abang, then I have to get line 5 or 6 and make all the way to Pondok Ranji. After taking a train, I can just walking for about 15 minutes from the station. My spent for transportation is:
Home-Station with bus 83 (15 minutes): IDR 4k
Lenteng agung - Pondok Ranji via commline (90min to 120min): IDR 3k
Pondok Ranji to Lenteng Agung via commline (90min to 120min): IDR 3K
Lenteng Agung to my Home with Ojek (10 minutes) IDR 10K
Total IDR 20K - for 1 month IDR 440K
Total time spent : 2Hours

The cost varies depend on what time you arrived. I swear I won't go at 6am to 8am because the crowd is crazy. How come you just push yourself and don't think about the harm that may come to you if you push your body to train full of people? All of this people think is just arrived at their office but not thinking about their safety. Several times I look at people who get unconscious after taking a train and they have to get medical treatment at station. I mean, come on. I always get emotional everytime I push my self to this kind of situation. All I can see is just greedy people who don't even care about others. The bad thing about take commline is: You get trough the busiest station in the gold triangle business district before you transit. So mostly all of people from south (Bogor),go there.

On the other side, taking train give me more chance to meet new people, even old friends. I realize this after several times I bump with my friends and have chance to chatting with them. Maybe because ALL of people taking train, then more chance for me to meet them. Well, that's one nice thing. One more thing is: I can read a book in a train or sleep (if I'm lucky enough to sit)

Because I'm easily get bored, I think I have to try another transportation mode. One of easiest, cheapest, quick but put you in a danger more than any transportation: Driving your own motorcycle.

Bring motorcycle is not as hard as I think at first. Actually its faster than riding commuterline if you know the way. When the first time I use my motorcycle, I arrived between 30 to 45 minutes from Pasar Minggu. There are some of rute I already tried, and I found the fastest way.

Best time to go: 8.30-9.00.
Cost: IDR 30K to IDR 40k /week
Total spent time: 45min to 90 min
Route:
1. Lenteng AGung-Pasar Minggu - Kemang - Antasari - Cipete - Fatmawati - Pd.Indah - Bintaro
2. Srengseng Sawah - Jagakarsa - Cilandak - Antasari - Cipete - Fatmawati - Pd.Indah - Bintaro
3. Srengseng Sawah - Jagakarsa - Cilandak - Antasari - Cipete - Fatmawati - Pd.Indah - Ciputat - Bintaro

The hardest thing to use motorcycle is when you have to ride this everyday. There is no way you can take a rest in an hour journey. Somehow my body can't take the struggle, because my right hand and my back starting getting hurt nowadays. Not only my body,I feel so alone yet I feel disturb with the crowd of all this machine. All of those honk-honk-honk eventually makes me really tired, mentally and psysically. I used to arrived at 8-10 pm. I don't have energy to do anything but sleep.

If you think I'm so worn out because I'm riding it by my self, what if I use Gojek (just like Uber but motorcycle vers)?
Well I'm using it before. I just pay around IDR 10K (well, it almost 20km to reach my home)
I think, my body really hurt (especially my feet) because we just sit and sit. I'm a bit bored, even sleep on the way to my home (yes I put my self in a danger). After riding it, my legs are shaking and my butts really hurt. Thankyou, thankyou. If not in a hurry, maybe I will not use any gojek. I prefer riding it by myself.

How about taking bus?
Take a a bus, especially in Jakarta, is not an easy job.