Please Let Me Finish my Dissertation Today 🙏💗

 

I need supportive peers around this time

I am lucky to have my friends around me so I feel so grateful of this

Let's finish it quickly

Hopefully all of us got the best result~

I Need to Finish My Dissertation First Draft

Hello~
Here I am in a city that 11,718.40 km away from my hometown trying to fulfill my responsibility as a student~

Nowadays I have been thinking about my next goal. Whether I need to move out and back to Indonesia or spend another year to get internship? I still contemplating on how I will direct my near future. 

Finding some internship is not an easy task as I am still looking for a suitable position. I need to looking for them from now in order to survive but I am hesitant at the same time. I am still a little bit worry about the minimum wage, whether it is enough to fulfill monthly rent and my overall needs. A year study is too short! I wish I can get my second master later or I have a little bit interest going on with PhD even though it means I have to contemplate on my next goal. 

Continuing my career in Indonesia is still questionable issue as well. I have the list and all the plan ready. I am afraid I broke out the trust while concentrating in my study. Before, I promise them to join the projects while I am here and I have difficulties finishing them all. Turns out, I still have those issue, abandoning projects but afraid to tell the truth about my condition. As a consequence, I am ghosting my colleagues while have my own everyday struggles. I think I need to change my attitudes, otherwise I can't get mature in this professional career. 

I also have been thinking about finding some new friends that will develop as my romance interest later. I think its because I am in that age when I feel the urge to start building my own family. I countlessly writes about my intention to get married but I need to sorting out my thoughts and asking for my parent's blessing. Day by day, I am starting to imagining people stay by my side, while helping me to continue with my study. I think I am starting to get crazy, thinking that I am really really bad at relationship and never feel good enough for anyone. These are the issues that lingering in my head and become an annoying distraction while I am doing my writing. Moving out to study is one thing that difficult to do, let alone the thought of marriage.

Still, I want to find him through my journey. 

May Allah granted this wish before I have my graduation ceremony (who knows!)

Well, everytime I get bad with time management, I don't know but I always coming back to this blog to write everything that become my distraction.

My second grade came out and it's A again

 

My second grade came out and it's A again!

Later I will share how I am planning out my writing paper and how I get to find my materials through literature~

I just want to say that I am so grateful!

My First Grade for Essay - Term 1

Hellooo~
I just want to send off my gratitude to Allah because I got A for my first 2000 words essay!
I was too afraid to see the result because I feel inferior and don't even know how to get rid of my anxiety. 

Let's be more confident next time and believe in my own self~

will update more of my learnings and my life here~

Term 1 Ended~ and Happy New Year 2024

 Hello~~

Nearing the end of my winter break, I want to share my learning through the time I pursue my master degree here in London. I am enjoying it so far but honestly most of the time I am struggling with my assignments. I need to focus on my study otherwise I cannot get a satisfying mark. 

A lot of new things happen, surely I need to adjust faster. As my stay here only a year, I think I am a bit laid back compared to other friends here. Most of them exploring new cities and countries menawhile I am holding back traveling, for the sake of essay lol. Now in the last weekend of my winter break, I am a bit regret it. I need to be braver to explore, even though it means I am going for solo traveling.

Back to my study, I am wondering if I entered wrong program as I have so many expectation that a little bit different from the actual learning. In our class, we discussed about a lot of things but I guess I still put my focus on art and design things and still hold onto it. That is why, when my program discussing about (for example) policy, that is something I am not familiar with. 

I also regret that before I enter my master program, I did not focus enough to learn about academic english. Reading is the integral part of our study and almost all of modules marked by essays. Its been a while since I focusing on academic papers and readings, let alone writing essays. It is true that I wrote essays before to apply my master degree and scholarship, but its entirely different from master degree assignments. I thought that I learn enough about IELTS and academic english, because I joined free online course for 3 months in the beginning of the year. I guess, I have to work really really really hard to improve my writings. I promise that I will write more this year. I love writing journal and diary, I guess I need to do it in between my academic essays.

In the process and class activities, I really proud of my self that I can handle group work in a great way, based on my opinion. Whenever I have group work, we always receives praises, saying that our group always have a great structure of argumentation and evidence. I love working as a group for practice module, the lecturers really great as well to bring certain atmosphere to the class. I also grateful that my optional module was really interesting as we received different topics each week, the lecturers are greatest expertise in their own field. 

One thing that I can say about learning my master degree abroad: NO REGRET AT ALL, especially I was aiming to do it in the best university in built environment: Bartlett School of Architecture UCL. Every corner and facilities is top notch, the location great. Everyday I grateful of my privilege to be here, experiences that I get to have once in my lifetime. London is great also, I love being in the big city and enjoying my study so much. 

Day by day, I feel like that my study here will more relate to my practices back in my country. I just a little bit anxious of how I will handle all of that expectation. I left it to my self, trying to not bother by anyone's comments. 

Anything to aim in the future, I just want to peacefully study here, and finish it with the works that I am proud of. 

Next time I will tell you my favourite places here in London~ 

See ya