Haloo~
Minggu lalu aku dapat kesempatan untuk nimbrung jadi relawan dokum di Komunitas Inspirasi Jelajah Pulau!
Seneng ketemu lagi sama dedek-dedek gemesh dan kakak-kakaknya yang sok gemes~
Sempat gak enak juga sama temen-temen relawan sepulau karena sering ga dateng rapat ditinggal buat acara kantor huhu..
Dan sekarang kembali gagal move on sama KIJP~
By the way, ini batch ketiga yang aku ikuti.
Setelah sekian kali ikutan Kelas Inspirasi di Jabodetabek, Komunitas Inspirasi Jelajah Pulau emang beda~ terbukti dengan aku yang udah ikutan 3 kali hahahaa ga kapok-kapok dan bosen daftar lagi.
Untuk temen-temen yang minat daftar KIJP tahun-tahun depan, sok atuh cek websitenya di SINI
As a girl whom already reach 25 years old, it is not easy to live without expectation of having life partner. I am not bother with my single status but the pressure from everywhere makes me questioned my life. What is wrong with me? Or what is wrong with having single status? Or to make it sounds more misserable: 25 and never have a date. Even my mom surprise. I'm not sure I should be laughing or crying :""D
Yes I am alone but I never been feels I am completely alone. I always try to find new friend and after that I never felt I am all alone. I never been in situation where I have no one to depend on. I also never been far away from home for more than 2 months :""D.
Sometimes when decided something, I also depend on other people. I am not sure it is part of tolerance or not being able to independent. Thinking about how I also involved in organisation as coordinator and have situation to decided something important, I think independency is not my problem though.
People also said: You haven't meet enough people to meet the right one. Hmmm... atleast I've tried? Almost every year I joined new activities where I met new people. But it is not the only one case, right? Sometimes, I also feel like blamed for not married yet by my ganks because I am the oldest among them. I know its not supposedly to become joke and it means they are praying for me also but you know, sometimes its growing my concern.
Last summer, I was experiencing three weeks of solo travel to the Netherlands. Somehow it change my perspective about being independent. For me, who never been living far away from home for more than 2 months, the experience triggered my independency and my self confidence. All of my friend whom already travel with me also know that I am the type of people who just sit back while all of them busy with something. You know what? My best friends were worried that I will sleep in the airport and missed my plane X''D
Being alone in a room, in the middle of stranger's country feels really odd. The emptiness somehow suffocated me. But then I've heard my inner voice talking. So I am more obedient to myself : cooking while I am hungry, cleaning my room everytime I feel unconvenient, singing along while listening to the music, writing blog everytime I feel mellow. I realized that while I'm away from home, there will be no one who giving me instructions to do this and that. I'm the only one who responsible to myself.
Living in the same home for all of my life time, I am afraid that I can't be more familiar with different environment. But then, I have to admit that : maybe it is the time for me to leaving my house, taking another adventure and life experiences. While I am nowhere by myself, I feels like I become more brave and confident. Strange feeling yet exciting.
While in the Netherlands, I decided to take my solo journey by train and bike to another cities. While thinking about that, I worried to death. I might be lost or getting hurt on the way. Or I just worrying something that will likely never happened. One thing for sure: I want to know how far I got to test my courage all alone!
So I've spent my last 3 days to explore Utrecht, Denhaag and Leiden. I went to Utrecht by train and the rest by bike. I have to biking for total 34 km back and forth to Denhaag just to see Madurodam. The next day, I went to Leiden by bike which 27 km away from Delft. I have to pay extra attention to direction in google maps. Since I have no internet data, I have to keep the app open all the time.
First thing to spot on while you leaving Delft city
Since I was in a country that using bike all the time, their bike routes are well-developed~
No need to worry about the route.. The direction in google map also easy to follow. Compared with I've been through in HongKong, the landscape of NL is flat and mostly you only have to pay attention of where the river go. Bike routes mostly following the canals.
No need to worry if no one took your photo, just find one of big window glass, or mirror!
I always can visit my favourite places without feeling uneasy... Or being too tolerate with my travel buddy.
Or stopped at the right place, whenever I feel tired, to have my own ice cream.
To meet this cute new friend... while enjoying my packed lunch..
Or stop awhile to take many photos of beautiful moments
These experiences give me different kind of being independent. Still, after all of that journey, I really missed to have conversation with my friend. But somehow, taking yourself to big journey, alone, is not a sad moment tho. I feels like dating my self (LOL :""). I always drag myself to accomplish something with all of deadline, always putting myself to pressure. While taking a solo journey, I can listen to myself, louder than before. All of conversation between me and myself. Still, I am in the middle of 20++ middle crisis. Talking and knowing ourself is the most important thing in this phase.
Maybe before I could listen to other people, or someone who will be with me all of my life, firstly I have to learn listening to myself. Also, I need to take my independent journey to a higher stage. I always believe that if God do not put ourself to certain condition that we always wanted, it means we haven't finish with the previous test. It might be the same with marriage, getting scholarship, get successful, being famous, and so on. I haven't finish yet with myself, so that God haven't sent me someone that I will taken care for.
Seeing all of posts in social media makes me tired and sad. There are alot of good things happened but still, you can't close your eyes of what our friends going through on the other part of the world. Aleppo still being burn by unresponsible people and mostly killed woman and children. Meanwhile Moslems in Rohingya are devastated because of intolerant people who can't accept them as their own citizen. American moslem are afraid their right will lost because their racist new president. Still, people in my country, which have Islam as majority, parting in several ways because of different political views.
I've been scrolling my facebook page these days, there are a lot of hate comments and nonsense articles circulating in my feeds. Last time I encountered this kind of situation is when we have our last presidential election. Since that time, I just realized that social media is a scary place. It can be used in a good way to share useful informations. On the other hand, there are people who use this opportunity to brainwash netizen and share provoking comments everywhere. People will easily share anykind of news that they are believe, despite the truth about it still questionable.
Still, it just a cyberspace, right? No one will really hurt you because of one share or one comment. Yep, I tought like that at first. But NO, nowadays it will have major impact in real life. People have their right to say anything, but without responsibility it means nothing. Do you remember when a woman posting about how she really annoyed by pregnant woman who took her chair in public train? Well, people will judge your personality, even in virtual world. I become really careful if I wanted to give my opinion, so mostly I just become a silent reader. But sometimes I can't take it when there are persons who didn't try to have some research or don't have wide perspective give their hateful comments. Even when he/she is really kind and have a good personality in real life.
I just remember when I was scrolling through my instagram feeds, and I found a picture of mouse. There are a lot of cats picture in my instagram so it make me curious. Then I click and enlarge their photo. It was a picture of mouse which it arms and legs being tied on something so it can't move. I didn't understand at first so I read the description. It turn out that they tried to make fun of that mouse by gave it punishment because behind the mouse there is a dead bird. I don't understand at all why they are posting that. What makes me really angry, it was shared by comedy account which have funny contents in it. If torturing an animal, even it just a small one, consider as funny, I don't understand where our common sense is. I'm not usually active but I posted two comments in that picture, after that I reported the account because it contained violence and animal abuse. Not long after I reporting it, they have it deleted. It just small matter, but this account have 150.000 followers. Imagine if a lot of people agree with this post, imagine the impact. Some of them gave comment "that it just a mouse, chill". But hey, even the serial killer only killing kitten in their young age.
Well, using social media is really tiring. Sometimes I prefer to shut it down, but I can't avoid the truth that they have great impact in these era. Then I remember, if we gave up using it and let the dark world dominating it, we will be doomed, really. So instead of close my eyes and logging out my account, we have opportunity to share good things, inspirational and motivational quotes, stories about humanity, and cuteness of our pet to the world againts all of those fake news that will make us apart.
All of my friends, whom I knew in real life or in cyberspace, I really really ask all of you, please be wise using your social media. Be a smart user, only share positive and useful content, avoid cyberwar if you can, and stop making any provoking statement. You have no idea how it will have impact, even slightest one. It is alright if you have your own perspective, but always using kind and polite words~
Well I'm praying for our country, and for my brothers and sisters in the other part of the world, may peace always above us.
"To be sure, an ordinary passer-by would believe that my very own rose looked just like you, but she is far more important than all of you because she is the one I have watered. And it is she that I have placed under a glass dome. And it is she that I have sheltered behind a screen. And it is for her that I have killed caterpillars (except for the two or three saved to become butterflies). And It is she I have listened to complaining or boasting or sometimes remaining silent. Because she is my rose."
I want to keep posting art videos since I already set up my room become a mini studio suitable for sketching or craft documentation. Its not perfect at all and I keep messing with my tripod. I'm really desperate about the angle and lighting. But since it gets me excited I think I want to keep make something~~
Maybe for this time I just posting my watercolor sketch but later I hope I can show you many type of crafts and my handmade creation ~
Thank you for watching~
Please subscribe my youtube account (eventhough I'm lazy to add logos and backdrop)
Hi~~ This is my very first short video about watercolor. I want to share about how making simple art can be healing and reducing your stress right away. Do not need to be art master, you can just playing with your brush, choose your favorite color and randomly splatter your blank space.
I find it really enjoying and I hope you can relieve your stress with this~
Have you ever told by strangers, randomly, that you are so beautiful?
This is the strangest thing I've encountered when I go to Korea..
In a country full of pretty and handsome human everywhere,
Meanwhile I myself feel like potato head walking between them.
Don't you think that is a really strange when a person (or a group of them) randomly
wanted to take photos with you, or insisted buying you some snacks, or just said:
"Hi, you are so beautiful"
Even in my everyday life, only my mom said that to me (LOL)
Really, this experience in Korea didn't happen only once, or twice.
Even I lost count, maybe total almost 8-10 times already?
First, they are so curious about what me and my friends are wearing on our head.
Then, they asking the country where we lived
Some of them observing us from head to toe
But then some of them said salaam, or just smiling,
Telling us that we are dressed beautifully,
covering our body but still let our charm shines
Once in a day, I've experience this 3 times.
First, when an old lady personally tried to talk to me in korean,
She poked me, say hi, then saying something like ''yeppeunde.." and give her two thumbs up.
As my face look dumbfounded she tried to talk to me again.
All I can do is said 'Thanks~'
Second, when me and Phatty went to Hanok Village
As we tried to take photos each other, one ahjumma (old lady) passing us and randomly stopped by,
watching us take photos and said that we are 'yeppeun',
Then, a group of Japanese mom told by that ahjumma that we are beautiful
Then they said 'Kireii desune~" and asked about where we come from
Third, a group of harabuji (old man - grandpa) tried to take photo of me
and tried to match me with one of their friend (lol)
and situation got strange as they keep talking in korean but still pointing at me,
and I just leave because more of them are joining conversation that I didn't understand
Well,
I've experience worse situation in my old days
I already sharing it here
self confidence once become my big problem
and experience this is one of my memory that I treasure
Now, what is the meaning of beautiful itself?
When you, always complaining about not pretty enough,
But other people, even strangers, told you that you are so fine
When I'm imagining said it to other people, heartfully, who will it be?
Why I said beautiful randomly to a stranger whom I look just by seconds?
She or he must be let out their charm beautifully so that other people have the urge to tell them
(well, I always do that when I find a cute little girl lol)
So here is the video and you will know how it feels~
Beautiful, they have no measure, fit for all of people
So, first, to see good things from yourself, stop compare with other people
I think, it is because of we're different (by wearing hijab there), that's not meant we're strange
We have our own way to decide what kind of 'beautiful' we are searching for
We know, and we don't follow any beautiful measure but tried to listen to ourself
I think that kind of confidence that makes other people see that good side of us
Well, I learn a lot.
Next time, I tried to compliment people more, always seek good side from them
By doing this, a simple thing like this,
More people will see a good side from themself
I've already experience one good thing,
Thanks to the really nice ahjumma and ahjussi in Korea (lol)
"The sign of beautiful person is that
they always see beauty in others"
that quotes is true indeed ^^
Listen:
All of woman are pretty
Pretty by treasure themself well
Pretty by know themself well
Pretty by treat other people nicely
Pretty by know how to act politely
and about myself as late bloomer (even never have a date once)
and other my friends who experience the same as me,
Never have a date doesn't mean you less pretty, I assure that hahaa
But time will make you the best people who deserve for the best one
There is a man
He is so lovely
He is really kind, a bit naive actually
He act like a gentleman
He is longing for a lovely woman
Once, he find the woman
He love her so badly
Because he is a lovely man
But, love is complicated
It just can't fulfill the wish of this lovely man
He can't understand
He already act like gentleman
But love, is never been easy thing
He wasted his time to think
Being kind and naive is not everything
There is a man
Once, he is so lovely
But now, oh he is so lonely
He don't know what to do
He would eat alone and wander the city
He just don't know
At another place,
There is a lovely lonely woman
Sincerely praying for him
Praying so that he will always happy
/1/
ia meletakkan kenangannya
dengan sangat hati-hati
di laci meja dan menguncinya
memasukkan anak kunci ke saku celana
sebelum berangkat ke sebuah kota
yang sudah sangat lama hapus
dari peta yang pernah digambarnya
pada suatu musim layang-layang
This is my own product, handmade Cute Camera Bag~~
You can pre-order, I'm open for customize design~
Just email me
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NEW DESIGN!!
Monday, November 5, 2012
ITS. REALLY. HARD. FOR. NOT. TO. BLOG. IT PLEAAAASEEEE Why are you do this to mee T^T Makes me staring at your pics for long time and giggle by myself T^T
Pleasee I wanna concentrate for the mountain of my assignments T^T Actually I'm not fangirling that much~ but believe me, Its really hard to resist T^T
Amanah itu kehendak Allah, rencana Allah atas kehidupanmu
Bahkan sekiranya semua orang di sekitarmu berhimpun untuk menjauhkanmu dari amanah itu, jika Allah tahu itu yang terbaik bagimu, maka ia berikan amanah itu kepadamu.
Bahkan sekiranya semua orang di sekitarmu bersepakat menyatakan bahwa kamu tak mampu, jika Allah tahu amanah itu jalan terbaik untuk meningkatkan kapasitas dirimu, maka ia berikan amanah itu kepadamu.
Bahkan sekiranya semua orang di sekitarmu berupaya maksimal agar seseorang yang bukan dirimu yang mengemban amanah itu, jika Allah ingin mendidikmu dengan amanah itu, maka ia berikan amanah itu kepadamu.
Bahkan sekiranya seluruh aibmu seketika memenuhi pikiranmu dan membuatmu berhenti melangkah karena ragu. Jika Allah tahu amanah itu akan membuatmu menjadi hamba yang semakin baik dan semakin dekat dengan-Nya, maka amanah itu akan ia berikan kepadamu.
Percayalah, ada rencana terbaik yang sudah Allah persiapkan.
Sikapilah dengan ikhtiar terbaik yang kamu lakukan
serta pertanggungjawaban terbaik yang bisa kamu persiapkan
sekali lagi, ini bukan tentangmu dan mereka, ini tentang kamu dan Dia
Dan melangkahlah dengan percaya, bahwa bersama-Nya semua akan baik-baik saja.
Semangat mengemban amanah semua BPH IMA tersayang :)
and eerrrgghh don't forget, Lia, you have the other activities such as BKST dancer, vice coordinator in educational field at campus' student council, and facilitator at Kagoshima project.. and that's not a simple matters
For me who always have problems with time management, it's not an easy challenge
