Always be Grateful

Going on hiatus from social media and work somehow makes me feel isolated. 

Insecurity always there to makes me feel small and unimportant.

I hate these feelings still linger in my daily life.

But then, there are many things I can be proud of while I'm being away from online media scene. 

I can be focus on my own issues, I really eager to re-learn about my own self.

I make my self to read books as much as I could.

Making book club once in two weeks, still learning traditional dance and going to teach kids on the weekend. 

I also in my way to change my own bad habit. 

I really anxious about future, as I am going 30 years old in less than 100 days

I still haven't reach anything in my life

Somehow I asks my own self why I am being like this

But then, Its God's will

The only I could do is to keep being positive, to lean all of my problems to God. 

I still learn bit by bit. 

Right now, I should be grateful for my own siuation. 

Maybe I should log off again from social media until I have my confidence back

 

Learning to Animate~

 

Dirgahayu Indonesia~

 

Hello~ Starting New~

 

I consider lots of choices right now

But right now it seems fun to learn about illustrations all over again

Also I'm getting interested in simple animated illustration

Should I go for that direction or not?

Art Style

 Since I love to explore new things again, I spend my time to draw digitally 

Almost 1 month since I learn to use drawing tablet and I find it convenient, except for its really challenging to adapt with my hand. 

I get many respond online with my new art style. They said that it suit me and they really love how I use pastel colors. 

Actually I love watercolors too. Therefore, I need to challenge myself with variety of tools to define my own identity

My Favorite Photo of My Self

 I am still learn many things about self-appreciating

This time I will share photos that taken by other people, but to think like the other people perspective:

"Why I think people in this photo attractive and it will be quite interesting to know her more"

Let's start!

I really love this photo! 

Taken candidly by my best friend while I was being a speaker about design thinking

I love how I genuinely smile without being awkward. Is this what people see when I smile? 

I just love it.

This photo taken by my fellow photographer friend while I was volunteering at an elementary school.

I wasn't supposed to teach kids but at that time we did not have enough volunteers to running all of classes and schedules. At that time I was being asked to teach sex education for kids. 

All I did when being speaker for government institution:

just doing all of comedy skit in order to make it fun! 

No, its not me singing. 

Well, it's not taken by other people. I just being with myself back then. 

Going solo to other continent and go to other city alone is my dream come true

I really really want to capture my own self there plus the beautiful scenery on my back

Mellow

 I think today I'm in a state of being mellow all over again

I'm a bit dissapointed by the unimportant online respond

I also a bit sad by the fact that I did less than I expected

I feel did not accomplish anything today

It makes me feel a bit useless?

This feeling come to me back and forth

Hopefully I could give my self a pat for today

Not to overthinking about anything

But these days makes me feel tired of nothing

Feeling under-appreciate, 

There is a big hole in my heart

I hope this won't stay for long