Process and Progress

 Hello, Here I am come again after being a bit discourage about my future. 

I'm not disregard God's will, but I'm just a bit anxious about my plan ahead. 

I'm a bit afraid but I'm sure I'm growing to be better everyday

I try to read a lot of books, pray a lot too. Also I join some classes that I interested. 

I can't really say  that I will be success, but everyday I strive to be the best version of me.

I still a bit afraid to open social media. I feel so pressure to see people's achievement. 

I don't mean to be jealous of those people, it's just me who needs to re-adjust my self. 

I  try to be honest with my own self, about my flaws, my trauma, my lacks of social skills, 

my own way to protect my well being. 

I need to sorting everything... in order to become my own self who is brave, kind and creative. 

I am really sorry if my attitude right now hurting you. I need time for my self.

Until 87 days later to my 30 years old birthday... I want to give myself the best present.. 

Ade Amelia who is ready to open new chapter, her own adventure.